I posted on the Positively Siân Facebook page last week that I’ve been really struggling to write blog posts. It’s been a really stressful couple of months for us and the past 2 weeks, I’ve felt like I might buckle under it all. How on Earth am I supposed to write a positivity blog when I’m feeling the furthest thing from positive?
Last Tuesday we got back from an incredible 3 days in Budapest – days spent eating wonderful local foods, drinking gorgeous craft beers, belly laughing and exploring the world. But the whole time, as well as my backpack, I felt like I was carrying the weight of a thousand worries. I felt ashamed that even in the most beautiful city with the most beautiful people, my heart could still feel the cool shadow of unhappiness. How ridiculous, I thought, that I could feel this way surrounded by so much wonder?
Put simply, I’m a worrier, I always have been. An over-thinker. Though my spirit is adventurous and carefree, my mind is careful and calculating – making it a fertile ground for anxiety! Luckily, 7.5 times out of 10 I can see the silver lining and put a positive spin on a problem…other times, I just can’t.
It took a coffee break with my wise friend Charlotte to give me some perspective. She said “It’s important to write from this place, too. People will relate because nobody’s life is all roses. It’s good to appear human too”. A light bulb flickered in my head and this post was born…
My life isn’t always Positively Siân. I’m a right stress head sometimes. I get moody, anxious and overwhelmed. Often actually. I worry about EVERYTHING. Oh and whilst we’re at it, I’m prone to severe cases of the hangry!!!! What I’ve realised though, is when life is overwhelming and your worries feel like they might finally break you (or when the hanger rises to near hulk levels!!!!), it’s important to breathe and remember: we are human.
You simply can’t be your best self 100% of the time. Your energy and mood will ebb and flow with the circumstances. There will be days when you can’t be the positive energy in the room. Days when you can’t be the most patient parent. Days when you can’t be the most fun and loving partner. Days when you won’t be able to tick off half the things on your to-do list.
Let yourself be 🌱 Do what you need to do – and do it without judgement! 🌿
If you need to cancel dinner with a friend, if you need to delay the ironing, the washing and the cleaning, do! If you can’t bring yourself to write (!!) or paint or revise…let yourself break when you need to. It’s okay to treat yourself with delicacy.
You are human. Be kind to yourself. There is no guide book to life! Take each day as it comes – each hour as it comes if necessary. Breathe. Remind yourself that it’s only temporary. Feelings come and go, circumstances change. The sun will rise again tomorrow and it’ll be a new day.
I’m feeling much better now…and you will too! Just know that even the most positive of people feel the strain sometimes. We’re all in this together.
Love Siân x